February 2, 2021: Today I had planned to toss out 2 expired 1/2 used tubes of cream, but felt a strong pull to face an emotional item ~ I want this challenge to truly mean something at the end.
Taking a deep breath, feeling a wrenching twist in my heart, I took my 2 favorite love/hate washcloths and placed them downstairs to go to the textile recycler. A bittersweet donation, they were high quality and well enjoyed for a decade; unfortunately, not only were they starting to fall apart, but they reminded me of the person who gave them to me (which was a recurring trauma in and of itself).
It’s so hard having an item which sparks joy and hurt simultaneously. Even now, I am fighting the urge to bring them back upstairs while feeling happy I won’t be reminded on a daily basis of someone who harmed me.
I’m lucky there was much support from my friends to stick with this choice… my friend Gina even pointed out it was unhealthy to keep them. Actually, amongst the grief, I’m glad I chose to feed the wolf of health and caring instead of the one of despair and angst.
Here’s to allowing wounds to finally heal! And a successful Day 2! See you tomorrow!
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